My Beautiful Psychosis is a stunning debut memoir from international award winning documentary filmmaker, Emma Goude. It is a gritty tale of transformation, depicting from the inside some of the most powerful experiences a human mind can endure.
What if psychosis is really a wake up call?
Emma is a twenty-something who likes to party and take drugs…until she decides to give them up…and that’s when the insomnia starts. After five nights without sleep she ends up in A&E.
Three questions stand between Emma and the psychiatric ward. Three questions determine whether she is sane or not. She gets them wrong.
Emma is an atheist, a skeptical cynic who chose dope over religion, so when she has some spiritual experiences she is not entirely sure if she is delusional. The psychiatric system has forgotten that ‘psyche’ means soul. All they know about is medication and they have ways of making her take it. It becomes a game she has to play in order to get out. It is also a perception of herself she must do battle with to stand strong in her belief that her experiences are real.
“Edgy, immediate and contemporary” Elizabeth Diamond, Author
This powerful, honest and lucid memoir turns on its head the idea that psychosis is a debilitating illness, caused by a brain chemical imbalance, which requires medication for life. My Beautiful Psychosis questions conventional methods of ‘treating’ psychosis and points towards a radical vision where ‘diagnosis’ of mental illness makes allowances for spiritual growth rather than simply treating a perceived chemical imbalance.
My Beautiful Psychosis: Making Sense of Madness, is due for publication in October 2020 by Aeon Books.
The Opening Paragraph:
“From the first page I was hooked.’ With a Foreword by Dr. Russell Razzaque, Consultant Psychiatrist, author Breaking Down Is Waking Up and founder of Peer Supported Open Dialogue
This book will inspire others who have been given a label that has severely restricted their lives, and act as a beacon of light for them to reclaim the power of their own innate healing ability. It will also educate their family and friends as well as give mental health professionals a different perspective so that they can better support those in crisis.
“A guiding light for individuals, loved ones and healthcare providers.” Emma Bragdon, PhD. Executive Director, Integrative Mental Health for You
My Beautiful Psychosis turns on its head the idea that psychosis is a debilitating illness, caused by a brain chemical imbalance, which requires medication for life. It is an intense, honest and lucid memoir, an exposing and vulnerable adventure through a psyche that is spilling out undigested psychological material to reveal secrets that have been forgotten.
“I was taken by her authenticity and vulnerability.” Phil Borges, Director Crazywise
The psychiatric system pathologises these experiences, seeking to ‘help’ by relieving the distress through antipsychotics. Whilst medication is sometimes useful, it doesn’t really attend to the deeper need: for validation, compassionate holding, skilful navigation and most of all grounding.