Prioritising the mornings for writing and moving other work commitments to the afternoon feels really good. When I let it slip the mental chatter sets off an unease in my belly.
When I hit a patch of procrastinating it ranges from reaching into the fridge to watching a short motivational video to working on something else completely. Eventually I get sick of procrastinating and how that feels so I face into the obstacle and find a way through.
Every time it inspires a new technique. Let me give you an example. I’d been wanting to write about a particular memory but it was a brief moment lasting less than a minute. I didn’t know how to start writing about it because it was such a short thing to describe so I was stuck. After a week of procrastinating, eventually I sat with the block and just started to describe the room I’d been in when it happened. This led onto writing about the view from the window and how peaceful the house was to convalesce in. It turned out to be useful information as setting the scene that contrasted with the hospital environment.
I usually find scene setting quite boring and irrelevant to read in novels and memoirs. I tend to think the writer is just showing off or trying to get their quota of words up. I usually skim read it until I get to the what I consider to be the relevant bits. So it’s not a style of writing I would naturally do myself. Hence it created a block in me.
Now I know that trying to avoid writing is a sign that I’ve hit some kind of block which just means I’m about to break through into a new kind of writing technique. Or I’ve touched some buried emotion which I need to let go of.
I’m really enjoying this process of learning such an amazing craft. Anyone who finishes writing a book has achieved a great deal. It’s just me and the page and my ability to focus. I need to be aware of all the tricks I use to avoid facing into challenges otherwise they’ll just get the better of me. It requires a willingness to face into what I’m trying to avoid. I don’t have to figure it out I just have to be willing to show up and hang around in front of a block for inspiration.
I’ve been looking for a mentor and not having much success finding the right person. I realise, like death, this is a journey I might have to face alone.